INVISABLE

Invisible a word close to the heart
Something that rules life
A model to society
A picture seen unclear

Something that rules life
A monster that has taken over
A picture seen unclear
A life lived in fog

A monster that has taken over
A timer of regret and fear
A life lived in fog
Invisible to the eye of love

A time of regret and fear
A broken heart left unseen
Invisible to the eye of love
Waiting for the night to be seen

A broken heart left unseen
For society just to ignore
Waiting for the night to be seen
The day break of visibility

dream box

teary eyes dancing around the room
ending on a box, this box is not just a box
its where your dreams lay, your heart stops
there's nothing i can do but stand there
tearing over it
watching it disappear going under drowning in your good-bye river
holding my breathe not saying those words you want to hear waiting for my lungs to fall with yours putting your box next to mine
teary eyes dancing around the room ending on a box
your box closing every inch it can forever closed to decay
loving you till my last dance on this earth
exploring the planets up above watching over until the day i join you forever
see that box reappear in front of my eyes
holding inside to dance once more around the room in the air with you
this is my good bye letter to you
don't forget me where my letter is tattooed to my heart
forever with your name

Fears

if only you knew
the way i think
the way i try to survive
but theres a fear holding me down
this fear comes as a black figure in my dreams
the monster is why i cant sleep
the monster making my dreams to nightmares
the reason why i cant live in society like you
every dream i awake from leads me to a nightmare
this monster has formed outside my dreams
only to show when im brave to knock me down
just wanting to live but dying everyday
im afraid this monster has won my battle
yet for some reason my body still works
i can touch, i can see, i can smell, i can hear everything but my fear
does that mean its over? did he really win?
or is it my dream that won without me knowing?
the monster hasnt came back yet since the night of the battle
it won so what does this mean?
am i free?
free of the rejection from society
if only you knew the rejection that hides beneath the skin
the fear that makes my skin crawl
yet it sits on the bones like nothing can scare
i swam this far just to drown
i drove this far just to crash
i walked this far just to fall
lived this life just to die
its time to lie upon the grass
theh grass that once held me up from every toe i stepped
from every heart i broke from every tear i shed
from every soul i destroyed
just to make this one
to live forever in the scars you see
am i free?

do you really know who your judging?

Do you really know who you’re with?
Do you really know who she is?
Can you see beneath her surface?
Who are you really judging?
Every person we see wears a mask
But wait it’s not Halloween so why?
Are we sure we aren’t looking in the mirror as we judge?
Who are you really judging?
You would think something went wrong
A person dying
A pet crying
Baby not surviving
You get to the front
To where it all began
But you realize it’s just the black and white picture of society
Where you and I live
To where we judge without knowing
But who are we really judging?
Are we judging the person next to us or the person in the mirror?
The soul we walk on the air we breathe it’s all the same
Yet for some reason I can’t walk in your path
The path where you follow the steps of the south in the civil war
Where blacks are the enemy
But when did they become the enemy?
But our grandparents grew out of that stage and into a new
Where now if you live in 2010
Gays are the enemies
What did they do wrong? How did they become this?
Who are you really judging?
Can’t we all just join the color world?
Where there’s blue, green, red, orange, yellow in all our eyes
To where we can walk down the streets and not be afraid
But this is only a dream that can’t come true
Because we as humans always must judge the person next to us
Yet can’t we realize we are judging the person in mirror
For we aren’t as strong as the person next to us, behind us, in front or beside us
Who are you really judging?
If you really knew that girl in front of you
You would know she’s scared to show who she really wants to be
She has a mask on everyday but Halloween just for you and your judgment
You see she’s scared to sleep just in case that disease you give her every stare you glare
Just might make her not wake up
She’s trying to be herself but something is holding her back
Something every human has but she believes she’s not human
For she doesn’t judge like the rest
There are ones out there just like her
But are they awake?
Every night she wishes this wish at 11:11 just to meet one person like her
Yet the nights just go by becoming nightmares well she’s awake
The wish is now a knife waiting to stab her the minute she dreams
The minute she can be herself to you
The minute she can take that mask off and not be afraid to walk in front of you
She has friends but acts so happy when really in that car window mirror
She sees right though that smile awaiting for that day she is her
That day she can wear what she is for real
If you really knew her
You know you’re judging her just to hide
Your strength in realizing that you
Are the one you are judging.
Can’t you realize that we are all the different
We are what makes this world turn from
Black and white to red, yellow, black, white, brown, blue and green.

tangled

tangled up in your misery
waiting to excape from this nightmare
wishing for an excape route away from you
this word you used on me may have tied me
for awhile but one day you'll see i'll be free
free to tie who i want when i feel its right to knot
this word you used on me will burn with our pictures
you have been a growing nightmare to me
now with this word i will be a nightmare to you
this word will never exist with you and i
i'll show you how much you broke my heart
maybe next time you'll watch what you say to people
this word was destroyed by all the other words you spoke

can you keep a secret?

Can you keep a secret?
Take this secret to the grave with you
Make sure not to break this secret for it will never heal
Can you keep a secret?
This secret keeps me living my life minute by minute
If you destroy this then you destroy me
I can’t bare to be destroy once again
I trust in you to keep this secret
Because this secret is what keeps me up
This secret lays beneath my skin and all I want to do is give it to you
Can you keep a secret? Till the day we die
I will never let this secret die
This secret means the world to me and im ready to tell you what it is
This secret is I secretly want you in my life till the day I leave

Screaming out

Screaming out those three simple words that every girl wants to hear.
Waiting for the words just to come back just the way I dream every night.
Wanting you to say those words all the girls with the boys talk about
Wanting to be one of the girls for once in my life instead of one of the guys
Wishing for this dream to come true but something there is just telling me it wont
Telling me that I should just stop screaming out those words and walk away
Turn my back to what was thought to be there shining underneath the stars
but once the sun comes out I wake from this dream to only realize its not true
everything that I had thought was real with you was just a dream for me every night
getting up to start a new day just to end it with the this dream I have of you
screaming out every night for those dreams to come true just like I was a child
but then again I’m all grown up and so are you so fairytales aren’t our style
so what is? Is it love? Or is it fake? What’s this feeling I have? I’ve thought I felt every thing,
but when I’m around you there’s the dream feels like its real…. What’s going on?
I cant help to fall asleep unless you’re in my mind.
Screaming out the words that every girl dreams of yet you think of me as one of the guys
All I wish is for you to say “I love you”……. Do you?

unspoken love

One night alone


One kiss

One heart

One time all ending in one sad break

She thought it was meant to be

There was a reason why you kissed her that one night

The one winter night but now that months have past

And fights between them both of them

She thought he liked her after all he was always there

Making her laugh when it was a serious talk trying so hard not to fight

But yet the fighting was there flirting

One night alone

One kiss

One heart

One time all ending in one sad break

You made her cry sometimes but then you said you

Were sorry, you asked if she was scared and when she

Answered you saw it was lie you knew she was scared

Yet you didn’t call her out on it you just kept being

There for her even though you knew some of you was the problem

One night alone

One kiss

One heart

One time all ending in one sad break

one last night

Dreams die hearts break

People leave people die

Knifes stab guns kill

Time changes to pain you can’t explain

People will let you down

Tears will fall the heart will cry

Sorry for what I’ve done

Sorry for whom I’ve become

I’ll leave forever if you just can’t approve

I’ll do as you want and leave my dream behind

Sorry to who I’ve hurt to I’ve made cry to who I’ve killed

If I go will that make things right again?

Will that make you happy?

I’ll do what’s best for you

I’ll do what you wish for when you look at me everyday

Sorry for what I’ve done

Sorry for whom I’ve become

Dreams die hearts break

People leave people die

Knifes stab guns kill

Times change to pain you can’t explain

Before I go I got one question to ask will you miss me for this is my last day on earth?

strength inside

Broken heart hurting eyes


Could you see the hurt she cried?

The pain she shed? Just for you

That one night she cried all for you

Couldn’t you just tell she was in love with you

The one night you shared with her was her last night

No other guy could get to where you were

She gave you all her trust all her love

Yet you gave her a kid and booked right out

Broken heart hurting eyes

Could you see the hurt she cried?

The pain she shed? Just for you

Destroy her destroy her dreams

Everything she cried for

Everything she bleed for

Just in one night you destroy her everything

Broken heart hurting eyes

Could you see the hurt she cried?

The pain she shed? Just for you

society

Broken hearts everywhere we look


Not a smile in a mile we walk

Teary eyes every pair of glasses we see

You think something went wrong

A person dying

A pet crying

Baby not serving

You get to the front

To where it all began

But you realize it’s just the black and white picture

Of society

Where you and I live

The soul we walk on the air we breathe

But I can’t stand to breathe and walk in your path to where you

Follow the steps of the south in the civil war

To where blacks were the enemy but now it’s gays

That you flame with just one word “queer” comes to the sound you speak,

You live in a black and white world.

Come and join the color world to where you see

Blue, green, red, orange, and yellow.

no true-goodbye

Flames of the heart

Burn inside

Hard to breathe

Tears form

Questions come out

Stepped in-front of me

Now I wonder who to blame

For your pain was it the gun man or

Was it your best friend

Starting a perfect day

Leaving a perfect nightmare

I’m sorry I destroyed your dreams

I’m sorry I was the one and only who killed you

Stepped in-front of me now I wonder who to blame

For your pain was it the gun man or was it your best friend?

broken question

You say good-bye to the girl you love


She loves you too but yet you have no clue

She’s afraid to say those three lovely words

For one day she might loose you forever

But that’s exactly what grew you away

The last night you call and say the words

That she’s never heard from your month

Not knowing what they mean but letting you say them

Good-bye you ring

The last night to hear your voice

The last night to hear your laugh

The last night to hear your thoughts

That’s why she loved you for you were the only one to listen to care to love

But you left with her unanswered questions

She mumbles at a picture you once had

Why did you leave?

Why did you destroy her?

You broke down her walls but built them back up and all you have to say is

Good-bye

do you really know

Do you really know who you’re with?


Do you really know who she is?

Do you really care for her?

Stop messing with her heart and maybe you can get somewhere.

All these nicknames and you being all sweet and cute,

How is she going to know that you’re just friends?

That you don’t like her that you don’t care for her

Just like she cares for you

How is she going to know how to stop her heart from hurting?

Just say those words that will fix everything that will just put things in their place

You can go back to being who you are as just friends

With no one hurting inside and being so confused with all this

Do you really know who you’re with?

Do you really know who she is?

Do you really care for her?

Everyone has a heart but for her it’s like she has two around you

Her heart is just a toy that you play with every time

Calling her all these nicknames doing all these sweet things

Because of you her heart will never be one

Until the day you realize she’s the one

That makes your heart one

Do you really know who you’re with?

Do you really know who she is?

Do you really care for her?

Don’t you know she’s the answer to all your questions?

Kiss of Fear

Swam this far just to drown


Drove this far just to crash

Walked this far just to fall

Lived this life just to die

Its time to lie upon the grass

The grass that once held me up from every toe I stepped

From every heart I broke from every tear I shed

From every soul I destroyed

Just to make this one

To live forever in the scars you see

The voice you hear crying out every night

Watching movies together, getting ideas

Well the men and the women kiss in these movies

You look at me just like the men look at that one woman

But there’s something different something you’re not saying

Something in the air that isn’t the same but yet you kiss the lips

Of fear

Swam this far just to drown

Drove this far just to crash

Walked this far just to fall

Lived this life just to die

Its time to lie upon the grass

The grass that once held me up from every toe I stepped

From every heart I broke from every tear I shed

From every soul I destroyed

Lovely Dead

this is something i was just writing (can be a song or poem).....

how do you tell a guy you like them?
how do you get rid of the fear of reject?
the reject that hides beneath the skin
the fear that makes your skin crawl
yet it sits on the bones like nothing can scare
how is it so easy to fall in love yet get hurt a minute later?
like knifes falling right on top of you right after you get good news
the good news you been living for and that you got that good news
your now just an angel knowing if he really misses you
like you would to him and maybe just maybe
if you went back in time before you made a living
on the good news just maybe you could know
that he does miss you and that he likes you
yet you lay there in all your blood flooding in piles
of your fear of reject and now that your gone
you have found you have no fear
but heres the bad news just like every good news there is bad
this bad is something the living would find living for
yet you the dead finds it to be too late
now that you know he loves you